Love For Writing

Throughout my whole blogging career that started way back when I was 16, I just now realized how am I really attached to writing. My love for writing started when I got the idea to write the things that happened in my life. Especially that I am a problematic person. I name it as one of my weaknesses in my life. I tend to worry so much on little things that it could cause problems. I can't stop thinking about it until I assured it to be okay. At first, I don't like writing because my grammar is not that good. My friends even laugh at me when they see something not right in my words. At first it bothered me and so I stop writing. When the time came that my problems are already beyond my reach, I found refuge in writing. I never realized how relaxing writing is. It provides me comfort despite the problems that I face in school. I tend to just laugh about it after I read the articles that I write during that time. Even this time, I stopped writing because I got nothing to write anymore or I just run out of ideas. But now, I am back on track. Instead of making this blog a productive blog full of advertisements and things that could make money easier, I chose to make it as a diary. Writing all the current events in my life, it's either funny, sad, embarrassing or annoying, I just write it all as if I don't mind if anybody is reading it. It is obvious that this time of the year, I must have written a lot of articles but instead I just gather it all and then write them all up in one article. This way, I could save up the topics that I could write, at least my article would not just focus in one topic but many topics.
Anyway, later this day, I found out that I am halfway done in our software for the company. I was so happy that I didn't do anything this morning instead of finishing it. I just watched the box scores in www.NBA.com and Facebook. All morning, that's what I did. And I have forgotten about the exam that we will be having this afternoon for my other subject. In other words, I didn't study and I didn't do anything this day. It's like I am physically present in school but mentally absent for it. And later this afternoon as I took the exam, I realized that the questions are not that difficult but there are 70 questions. I managed to finish all of it in just 20 minutes. Not much of an analytic exam but much on the tricky type of exam. You gotta have sharp eyes if you wanna pass. And this day, I am obliged to finish so many things, like our software, some documents for the software and an activity but me and my friend decided to just take a day off and have some coffee. I just wonder when will I be finished with the things that I must do within this week.
Even with this pile of problems and tardiness time, I still find that time to write even though I feel like I don't want to. I should conclude that I really love writing above all. I didn't wish to be one big time writer or earn money through this but only wished to share everything that I had in the tank through this article. Writing sometimes can dry up your mind but it's fun once you read some of those old articles that you wrote and realized that how grammatically wrong are the sentences in your article are. And eventually laugh about it -- A lot! I always love to laugh at my mistakes in the past that I find funny. Anyway, it would be all guys. See ya!

Texas Rivalry and NBA playoffs

Greetings! Start the morning with the freshness of an NBA game. Nothing really beats the physical game of a playoff game. This is the first week of the playoffs and things starting to heat up as well, with players giving up, let us say, out of the context comments that caused fans to be raged up and be fueled up as the visiting team plays against their team. The raging fans in the sideline that shouts every time a player like Dwight Howard is doing a free throw. We would often see players rolling and stumbling into the floor as the game gets physical. I really love to watch the Lakers-Thunder game, I would like to see how can the Thunder manage to crack up the defending champs. But nothing beats the rivalries like the Spurs-Mavs had. I mean, they had that rivalry ever since Dirk Nowitzki shone in the Mavs uniform and Tim Duncan started carrying the team as the legend David Robinson retired. It's almost 10 years already since their rivalry began. And now, these two men faced up each other in a classic Texas rivalry match-up. The mavs won game 1 and the Spurs won game 2. Game 3 will be played in the Spurs homecourt so expect raged fans all over the sidelines shouting as Dirk Nowitzki misses a shot and as Tim Duncan makes a shot with his amazing post moves. I could say that both teams are matched up but I should say that the Spurs is slowly showing up it's age against a prime invaded mavs team. And yet, the tres amigos namely Tim Duncan, Manu Ginobili and Tony Parker and now with the addition of Richard Jefferson that makes them, according to www.NBA.com,the fab four. And yet, the Spurs brilliance is shines even with their aging players. Tim Duncan is not as dominating in the paint as he was before but still possesses the experience and those classic post moves that don't go out of fashion even through the time. Manu Ginobili's sweet lefty drives. Tony Parkers no fear slashes and now Richard Jefferson's 'doing everything I can do' attitude.
The spurs maybe a strong opponent as before but let us not underestimate the Mavs team. Now, with the addition of key players like Shawn Marion, Caron Butler and Brendan Haywood, I can say that it's going to be a nice and physical game out there. With their players in their prime now, I'm sure they would like to show the Spurs that we are worthy of facing the Lakers in the conference finals. The mavs had lost Josh Howard whom is the key for their wins in their 2006 championship run but they still had the scoring duo of Dirk Nowitzki and Jason Terry and the solid big man Erick Dampier. Breaking them down, they got Dirk's sweet jumpers, Terry's scoring capabilities even though he is too small for a shooting guard, Erick Dampier's solid presence in the paint. Now with the addition of Marion's lock down defense and high leaping capabilities, Caron Butler's no fear scoring attitude and Brendan Haywood's big body clogging in the paint.
I might be over biased that I only managed to break down the Texas rivalry game. And yet I still see it as the most exciting game in the playoffs. That's all folks! See you in game 3. Good day!

A Hot and Tiring Summer

Greetings! Summertime is here and the heat is starting to get into my nerves. Yes, it is extremely hot today here in the Philippines. It even affected my blogging appetite. It seemed that I lost my appetite in writing articles. I even thought that I lost my edge in speaking and writing articles in English language. I thought that I missed a month of writing anything. But the last article that I wrote was last April 6 so, I just lost everything else. My mind is so crowded that I got overwhelmed in my schedules and subjects this summer class. I have forgotten the fact that I am maintaining a blog site in which I would write all my experiences. Anyway, this summer, all I did is play starcraft: broodwars. I am actually a little late that I fell in love in the game when the starcraft 2 is coming out of the market soon. I am really not good in playing skirmishes with the computer so I made the idea to just play in campaign mode. I am starting in my campaign mode in terran. After is the protoss then lastly the zerg. I should blame my fiend for this. He lured me to play starcraft. I played this game before but it didn't really clicked on my taste. Because of the starcraft fever that I have. I was beginning to watch starcraft game replays in www.youtube.com.
The other thing that I did this summer is updating the software that we are working to be given to the company as part of our subject. The revisions was like hell. I even thought that the revisions that were given by our panelists were the final ones already. But this summer, our adviser found something that we couldn't take our eyes from it and he even challenged us on our software design because our design was a little out of fashion or let us say, our design is a little old school or it is really an old school design.
Lastly, is the PHP program that we are working for our other subject. I thought that it is like doing a html program but I underestimated it so much that I am always late in passing our activities. PHP rocks! But you got to exert so much effort to make it work like facebook. I am still working on my login php script, can anybody help me? It's difficult. I kept on looking for sources in the net but I find it hard to understand the sources. I will just work on it this weekend. I'll give myself a day to work on it. And the next day is for our company's program. In other words, this weekend, I'm gonna be in full load. I hope facebook will not disrupt by concentration (laughs). I'm setting my goal this weekend and No Facebook this weekend.
This is such a long article. I should have written a longer one for the weeks that I missed. But anyway, I am back on track now so expect a series of articles that is related to starcraft, software designs and revisions and lastly, PHP codes. Good day.

Hope Revival

Good day! It has been a long time since I have written up in my blog. I am not busy as of this last few weeks but I just have forgotten. Sorry:) And I have nothing to write too. I was really busy thinking about my grades. Just this morning, I got a call from my friend saying that I passed and I would be staying in the division. I was so happy that I almost forgot to cook for our lunch and I am running out of time because my parents are coming home already. What a week it was for me just to think about how did I do with the other subjects. Maybe I had also forgotten how to be positive in life. I kept on wondering why in situations like this I always forgot to be positive. All of my pessimistic behaviors would surface out? Well, all those worries are over by now. I got my grades already and they are GREAT! My hopes are back again and I hope that I would survive up to the end. I will just have to take it one by one, little by little. As of the moment, I got nothing to write, I got nothing in my mind. Maybe I would just share the things that I have done earlier this week and last week. Last week, I have to make a quick review on my lessons because of the SBA(Skills-Based Assessment). I was really nervous that time. The unfortunate this that happened was the modules that I have studied are not the ones who came out in my SBA. Our SBA is made up of 3 in each group. Each member has his own set and I have studied the wrong set. :)) It was so funny but we still made it. We got a perfect group score but my individual score is a little bit disappointing. Earlier this week, I just stayed at home waiting myself to become tired of just watching TV, reading manga and FACEBOOK. The facebook fever is on everyone! I go online early in the morning and boom! I got over 20 friends online already. And I log in again in the evening then over 30 friends are online. Is there anytime that my chat box would be empty? My chatbox had never been empty. Anyway, I just got my cooking touch back this week. My mom told me to cook various viands for our lunch and I realized that my cooking is isn't bad at all. I hasn't changed at all! Although I lost a little of my sense of tasting which turned out my mom kept saying to me that my soup always lacked salt. :)) I also been caught earlier this week reading manga comics. I got this one love story that it was so exciting to read. And just this morning, I finished reading that story. That was a very good story. I was really touched by it. Anyway, tomorrow would be enrollment day so I'm gonna be out tomorrow for my enrollment. Maybe I could write back again in the evening so till next time. Good Night.

Confidence: Nothing To Worry About

Good day guys. I admit it, this is the first time in my life which I haven't had the feeling of fear during semester breaks. Fear because I might have failing subject. Today, I had nothing in my mind except rest and joy. Usually at this time of year, my mind is very crowded with wild speculations. I was really surprised about this. I hope this would last until the summer class. I don't feel like I will fail this semester. I kept on thinking about passing and that's will be happening. I am so happy today that I couldn't express the feelings that I have in my article. Anyway, I still have one exam left in our networking class but I haven't felt any pressures that I should pass the exam. But I already promised myself that tomorrow, I am going to study for that exam and I will not fail that last exam. I feel like I got confidence pouring inside of me that's putting my morale up to the maximum level. Just before the finals of our semester, I kept on thinking about failing but it was the opposite of what I am feeling today. Anyway, this week is our defense week for our SAD(Systems and Analysis Design) subject. Our defense was last Monday, we haven't sleep the day before it I have only slept for 3 hours. During our defense, we were cornered by the panelists! The good thing was the head panelist gave us 2 hours to fix our bugs in our software. Luckily, the bugs were made up of wrong variable namings, variable not matching to other variables and etc. So, it was just a little revision that were given to us. In less than 2 hours, we finally managed to fix everything else and the panelists gave us the flag meaning we passed. There are other groups that also been in our situation. They were also given 2 hours to fix it up and they made it. But there are also groups who haven't passed. I thought that everyone will pass this time but my mistake, this time, the panelists are stricter than the last defense that we had. I was so sorry for my classmates who haven't made it. I mean, they did their best, had countless sleepless nights to make their software work but in the end it didn't help them pass the subject. I am so sorry for them, I am truly sorry. As I see those people who come out in the room teary eyed, I already have this notion in mind that I must comfort them for the outcome of their defense. Or help them forgot the thing that they had just faced. But it doesn't help, every negative words that the panelists would utter hurts the morale that you have stored inside of you. But yet, I also envy those people who made it without the panelists giving them 2 hours of fixation to their software. Anyway, to those people who are taking their vacations already, Have a good time. I will still be here writing my every article straight from the heart. Good day.

A Dying Hope

Good day! The exam week is already over and so as I was visualizing for a nice and sooth enrollment this summer without an troubles. For I have always been a burden not emotionally but financially, the drop of my parents' coins in Ateneo's cashiers would be hard to swallow as I see the cashier counting the money out. I could never be happier if I could pass this semester with flying colors, not worthy for a judgment whether I must stay in Ateneo or not. As I sweat down every night with a little twist of coke when I study, I still had some doubt in myself whether I could make it or not. I couldn't accept the fact that I would not be accepted ever again. I would have the greatest letdown in my life if it were to happen. I would never forgive myself if it were to happen. And I will be miserable in my whole life if it were to happen. My dream would be broken throughout my whole life. As the exam week comes to an end, it left me thinking about these things but because of my optimism, I was away about these things and I don't want to think about these things too. Right now, I was hoping, my last hope or my dying hope... I feared about my optimism would wind down and needs to be recharged or my optimism would opt out and it would be difficult to regain it. I couldn't imagine the circumstances right now. At the start of the year, I was thinking about redemption and I got what I want but does it had to end up like this? Will this redemption project just lost it's flare so suddenly? I have already given out my last knock-out punch yesterday in my Algorithm subject and so I was waiting for the decision whether I am worthy or not to stay. This is the reality, the life in the university, the bitter life that university students experience. Aside from the expensive tuition fees that you have to pay yearly, you also must maintain your grade to be in able to stay and not to disappoint your parents paying for your schooling. I experienced it all, I experienced it on hand, the bitterness of studying in a university. Why have to be so cruel? We payed and if we fail we will be kicked out of our division, the worst thing is the school will kick us out. We payed for education, we payed expensive fees and at the end we will just be kicked out? What are they thinking? We are not a public school that it would be okay for the school to kicked a student out obviously because we have to pay nothing to pay for our schooling there. In every angle you look, they are in power and so you are only obliged to follow the rules. Good day.

Frustration Ahead...

Good day! Frustration will always be a part of our lives. It is the one that pulls our morale downwards or maybe pull it upwards depending on the frustration that one has. As for me at this moment, the frustration that I have has grown drastically that made me reminisce and reflect about it. My optimism, I would say, has been affected too but not really that big. Because of my optimism I am still rock solid right now to my beliefs of redemption. Just later today I found out that the girl that I really like had some guy way back there to the place where she was born. It was not frustration but disappointment but the frustration there is that is why she is not replying on the chats that I try to initiate. Why can't she just tell me to stop. Another is our teacher in theology who really frustrated us all in our class. He had this thing in him that we really hate the most. Take note, he had sudden mood swings! Not fitted to a man I would say. Men don't have mood swings, once what will be their mood then that's what it is for the rest of the day except though if something terrible really happens. I often termed men who had mood swings as gays. I even have frustrations in my academic life as well. All those grades which I find myself hanging and to those grades that I think I don't deserve to have. I even promised to myself that once I failed to reach my grade goal this semester, I will never ever smile as long as I can't hit back. The promise seemed to be hard but it supposed to be that way because if I fail this time, I pretty sure that I would be kicked out of our division. The people in our division are literally strict when it comes to those kind of things. I just hoped that everything goes on well this time. I can't afford to make anymore mistakes that I have already done in the past. I have learned my lesson already but I think that it is already too late for me to fix everthing else. I wish I could go back in time and rearrange all the things that happened in my life. But I must face reality and reality is this. I can't do no more. All this things that I have learned and experienced in college was shared by me to my brother. I asked him about what course would he be taking and what college life is. I don't want my brother to be like me when he will be in college. I don't want him to experience that bitterness of my life. As an older brother it is my responsibility to take care and guide my younger brother towards a way where you really have a solid ground. I am not greedy not like other people who just let their young people do the things they want and let them experience what they have felt. I am very frustrated to those people who feel that they are something important. Making so much fuzz over little things that shouldn't be considered as a big one. Trying to get some attention. I hate those people who do that especially if they are not really deserving to get that kind of attention and yet there are people who go with then even they already knew about their kind of attitude. (sighs*) Well, what can we do about it? That is them. What I cared about right now is about the redemption thing that I am planning to have. But the boat is in the middle of the storm and I think that the boat cannot withstand the storm that is there so literally, I am sinking. When I reflect, I can't stop thinking about the past events that had happen in my life. All those painful events that happened. And I only wish that it would not happen again. Good day!